Just another manic Monday.....

Today starts my last week here at BCBS of Louisiana; Monday morning I will be the new Executive Administrative Specialist for the Department of Maintenance and Construction for East Baton Rouge Parish, fancy way of saying I'll be the new office manager.  I'm sad to leave BC.... I know I've only been here since September, but I've gotten pretty attached to some of the ladies here in our department.  They've been amazing!  It really does such to have to start over, and there is some anxiety that comes with starting this new job.  I'm trying not to dwell on it, but it hard not too.  I know that I'm going to the youngest in the department and I'm coming in to be the supervisor, I'm praying its a smooth transition for everyone.   The other part to my anxiety  is the fact that I'm pregnant now, and I don't know how or when to tell them.  I'm thinking about waiting till I'm in my second Trimester: that gives me sometime to form some relationships/bonds and let them know that I really am serious about my job; I'm not going to not come back from maternity leave. 
It was kind of funny today, Scottie (my new boss) called to confirm I had the directions to the office since I'm scheduled to have a drug test done on Wednesday, he wanted to remind me to bring whatever medications I am currently taking to it won't delay me passing my drug test.  I smiled and said "not a problem"... But in my head I said "yeah, not a problem CAUSE I'M PREGNANT.

Next Tuesday, Feb 7th I have my first sonogram followed with an Office Visit.  Dr. Chapman thinks I should be 7 1/2 to 8 weeks at that appointment... I'm praying!! If I've 8 weeks we will be able to hear a HEARTBEAT!!!  That right there will officially make it real for both of us.  Since the miscarriage we have been a little apprehensive about celebrating... it's sad to think that way, but we now know that things like that are a possibility. I really do hate that, but its reality.  For example... I'm making my own little milestones: I had my miscarriage at 5 weeks 4 days, so I told myself my first step is to make it past 5 weeks, 4 days.. and I did.  Now my next step is to get to our first sonogram and hear the heartbeat, and than I just have to get through the first trimester.

We did go and look at nursery furniture last weekend at Babys R Us, and we actually ended up liking the same furniture... thank you Lord!  We want to go with the dark cherry or espresso stained wood, and we agreed to want to get the conversion bed.... its smarter in the end.  AND of course I have already found the pattern that the nursery will be in.... GENDER NEUTRAL OWLS!!.... I know most of you are not surprised at all!!  its super super cute.  Here is what two of the patterns look like that I'll be using in the room.  I'm pretty sure that I'm going to pull the green as the other accent color.

I apologize for such a short entry... there hasn't been very much excitement going on around here.

My quote for today:

~Worrying does not empty tomorrow of its trouble;

it empties today of its STRENGTH